26. BREAKING THE RULE

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26. BREAKING THE RULE

The rule of moon to the sun is this: the sun can touch my body by his presence, by his light but never by his hug. when it happens it will cause my death, my heart will be burn, and suddenly will turn into ashes, but if you do... before my goodbye -i will cherish that moment, when we choose to break the rule of being separated in each other, that we choose that night -to be together. That moment, while we in one body, i am slowly fading, slowly burning my every part... but slowly turning as a whole. THEN THE SWEETEST MOMENT IN MY LIFE IS WHEN I DECIDED TO BREAK THE RULE.

[Maria Cassandra Malaya's Point Of View]

2 weeks after that night -feb 14, I realize 2 things with the two of us -sir. Mikko and I:

1. we both broke the rule. Patapos na ang story ko- nasa part na ko na hulog na hulog na sa karakter na babaeng estudyante yung prof. niya- ang ending na lang ang dapat kong tapusin -ito yung sasabihin niya,

"sir, I'm done writing my story -we're done too, sorry if I used you -the very day when I saw you with your girl - Cherryl. That was my first step, to make a move para magkahiwalay kayo at doon naman papasok sa buhay mo ang bida, at maiinlove ka without knowing na pinaglalaruan ka lang pala, na..." tsk!- bakit ganito!! hindi sumusunod yung mga nangyayari sa nai-plot ko nang story.

Dapat ganun ang mangyari pero pinipigilan ako ng puso ko. tsk! lagi na lang nagmamalfunction, waaaahhh!! please take care of his heart!

please take care of his heart!!

please take care of his heart,

please take care of his heart,

please take care of his heart,

hindi dapat ganito e, pero... pero kasi, ayokong masaktan si Sir, "love him more than how I love him," lagi nang pumapasok sa utak ko ang boses ni Cherryl.

2. I LOVE my Sir. Mikko, -LOVE?? waahhh!!

I LOVE Mr. Salvador, that stupid instructor-nakakahawa, CRAP!!! -feeling ko stupid na rin ako.

I can't lie with my Dad, "please dadda, i can't marry Kelvin, i don't love him," i know my dad will understand me. Si Granny lang naman ang may gustong ipakasal ako sa tagapagmana ng THAN.

" respect my feeling dad, i am in love with someone else," I sobbed at my father's lap, that moment I feel that am not alone, I have my dad that would understand my situation.

"there something happened with me and Sir. Mikko... I adore him, i want to be his wife, dad," umiiyako ako habang pinagtatapat yun. I am like a 3 years old asking with my dad, i want this. I want this. damned that BIG lie!! Cause some lies are half truth -i know.

Cause I am the first breaker of my own rule:

"NO SIR!! a deal, let we start a new thing sir, I have a deal with you po..."

"Sir, e I want to write a story... about a forbidden love of a student and her Professor.

I want it to be feasible, seems like a true to life story... for the sake of it...

Be in the deal sir, Be the part of my Character!!"

"SIR!!! ARE YOU ACCEPTING THE DEAL OR NOT??

Si Sir, kahit ayaw niya... " Sige! Sige! Accepted!"

"Good my Sir!"

Deal will ends if only I finish the story Sir,

But another one, Reminder Sir:

for the sake of your career.. NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO FALL IN LOVE

That’s the only rule: FALL IN LOVE is PROHIBITED po, OK??

This is my deal with him! But now?? What happened?? My mind refuses my own heart beats. I realized, one day when i woke up -there is a battle in my heart and my mind. I really don't know what it means? But still, here I am, helping my heart to won the battle. I choose sir Mikko, I love him..

"CASSANDRA!! WHETHEIR YOU LIKE IT OR NOT, YOU WILL GET MARRIED TO ISSAAC KELVIN," nagulat ako nang biglang nagsalita si granny.

"SCOOTH TALK TO YOUR DAUGHTER, IT IS OUR TRADITION, WE CAN'T BREAK IT! STOP YOUR BEING STUPID, " si Granny, narinig pala kami. She pushing that fixed marriage, damned tradition!

"sorry lola, I can't do what you want, kayo na lang po magpakasal dun kung gusto niyo," ang bigat na ng puso ko nun. Pagkasabi ko, agad na kong tumakbo palabas. pumunta ako ng garahe at nagpaandar ng scooter, gusto kong maglabas ng sama nang loob. why they don’t understand my feelings! They so much care about their business, there money?! damned that. huminto ako sa oval field, gabi na yun at walang tao sa oval. gusto kong tumakbo, tumakbo. I run. paikot sa field, my heart beats faster and faster, gusto kong ma-ease yung pain na nararamdaman ko.

Para maramdaman kong manhid na ko sa sakit, at hindi na ko masasaktan pa...

kaso, bakit ganun.. mas lalong sumasakit yung puso ko. mas lalo kong nararamdaman yung kirot na halos -bakit ba kasi ako ganito e!! so-sorry na,

"miss, ayus ka lang, miss"

"pare buhatin mo, takbo na natin sa hospital," i realized, may bumuhat sakin.

a-ayos lang ako e, yung puso ko -parang huminto na sa pagtibok. Dad..., granny..., Sir..., kelvin, cherryl so-sorry.

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I feel so numbed that moment, "ikaw ba yung dahilan kung bakit nagkahiway sila cherryl at mikko?" marami na pala akong naapektuhan? si nurse Jessica, alam kong mabait siya. at nasasaktan din siya sa nangyayari kay Cherryl. Hindi ko alam kung dumating na yung oras na nalaman na ni Sir Mikko?? sorry Sir.

for playing people life, pero kasi e... gusto kong matapos itong story ko.. WAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

"Case are you alright? tell me your problem," bumalik ako sa realidad dahil sa tapik ni ate Kristina,

"bakit mo pinunit 'to? Case, ate mo ko di ba, pwede mo rin akong pagkatiwalaan," pinulot ni ate kristina yun binder ko na naglalaman ng mga story ko,

"ate h-hindi ko na siya kayang ituloy," kainis, para akong bata, naiinis ako sa sarili. I realize then, umiiyak na rin si ate Kristina, o kanina pa siya umiiyak bago pumasok sa kwarto ko, bakit kaya??

"alam mo natutuwa ako kasi tinatawag mo na kong ate," napansin kong tumutulo yung luha niya at pumapatak dun sa binder ko kung saan nakasulat yung kwento kong 'MY PROFESSOR AND I'

"Case, alam mo bang nalaman ko na kung sino ang tunay kong tatay?? " napahinto ako dun sa sinabi ni ate kristina, nalaman niya nang tatay niya si Manong Dio.

"at ang sakit sakit nun Case, kasi yung tao na yun, alam mu bang ansama-sama ko sa taong yun, nagu-guilty ako kasi wala naman siyang ginagawa saking masama pero ansama ng pinakita ko sa kanya, na kahit nalaman kong iniwan niya kami, o nag-decide siyang iwanan na lang kami, heto sya at bumalik, matagal ko na pala siyang kasama hindi ko pa alam, " ate kristine sobbing a lot,

"i realized then, na mahal ko parin ang tatay ko -ang tunay kong tatay, " i hugged my ate kristina, mas lalo tuloy akong na-guilty ngayon. I am decided to tell the truth to Sir Mikko,